Heightened Emotions

Sitting alone by myself, adrift in my thoughts. I think of how much behind my children are emotionally, compared to normal kids their age. My mind stirs with thoughts both from my past, what has happened today, and movies of what the future might bring. Sometimes it is entertaining and I have to laugh out aloud from the overwhelming sensation. Sometimes it brings a tear to my eye. I fear for everything that my kids will have to go through in this life, many of which have scarred me forever. My son is trusting of everyone still, at the age of eight, and I rehearse in my head speeches that I might have to make. My thoughts drift to the first time, a few years from now, that he realizes some people can't be trusted. The first time he is the victim of theft, whether it's from someone robbing him, or being used, or scammed. It will still take many years before he'll realize it, still giving out his heart, and getting hurt more and more each time. The scars going deeper. I will have to explain it to him in simple, short language. "Most people can't be trusted because they don't care about you or your feelings" will be the words he will hear, the easiest for him to understand. I'll still have to explain this to him many times for it to sink in. But how much hurt can he take in his lifetime, from these types of experiences, even bad girlfriends, before he will break. I lasted 40 years, I hope he will do better. Someone with regular emotions is scared by a big event in their life, even at a young age. What if every bad event is a Highly emotional thing for the autistic? They'd be getting scarred everyday. As an example of this, I know how heavy the burden is. I'm not the man saying the autistic are more emotional with their heightened sensory input, the experts say that. I've just given you an example of what it is like, for Tony, as well as myself. These are the emotions I deal with daily thinking about such things, and these are the emotions he'll have to live with, so will my baby girl Tristyn. Heightened.