My suicide note(hypothetical)

If I were leaving you, this would be my note. I would want you to read all that I wrote. I would tell you to go back, search for clues, about what went wrong with me and you. Find the source of all my pain, my words are a trail left by my brain. I might be gone, but others remain. They too, suffer their own kind of pain. If you see my clues left in their words, they might not leave and fly off like birds. The rapture you've seen so many times of late, would not be so many more's fate. Please be happy that I've gone home, no longer looking for love will I have to roam. God gives me now all that i need. The blessed woman even gives me my weed. So smile, smoke and do not grieve, dance and sing until it's your time to leave :D I LOVE you all♥